Words Unspoken

Silence. It means that there is no sound. Then why does it feel so loud? A cacophony of noises that no one else can hear but me. The sounds of my mind on the verge of insanity, unable to bear the confusion in my thoughts. Blaring silent noise. 

There is something sinister about there being no sound. There is something scarier about words left unspoken.

One person. I don't get it, I never will and i'm not sure if I even want to understand how one person can have have so much control over me and not know it- or maybe know it (I'll never be sure).
They'll never say it and i'll never hear it. Those unspoken words linger in the air teasing and taunting. It's like we're walking in circles. Carefully tiptoeing around something without saying a word. Assuming. Believing. But it's never enough. 

Our brain thrives on asking questions and feeds on answers. So what happens when I don't get the answers I need?

What makes this world a confusing place is that people don't mean everything they say. They rarely do. It makes it difficult for me to figure out what to believe, what to understand. Words are just words I suppose. They have started to lose meaning. When words are often nothing but noise coming out of someones mouth, it might as well be silence. Same difference. Having said this, wouldn't it be easier if people just said what they felt and meant every word? No false pretenses, nothing to be be assumed, no confusion, no noise.