Rejection

Someone once said that failure and rejection are different. My biggest fear has always been failure. Today, I failed. There are so many tasks that one has to complete in a lifetime. One task. For the last three years, I had to do one thing. Work towards getting into the school of my dreams. The result? They rejected me. In other words, I failed to get accepted. And just like that, my biggest fear and I were eye to eye in an ugly standoff. One which I am bound to lose. 

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I know, I should take it into my stride and make the most of my situation blah blah blah. But as great as all of it sounds. It is easier said than done. This is my life at stake. Funny, considering my life has barely even started. 

They say that failure is a stepping stone to success. Okay so I should be excited at the prospect of something finally  going right in my life sometime in the near future, correct? Then why do I feel like there is something sinking in the ocean that is my mind because of a storm raised by my own emotions, dragging with it, any positive outlook  i might have ever had?

It's done. Over. I might never be the same person again. Failure does that to you i suppose. Changes you. For the better? I guess that's up to me but for now all I really want to do is curl up in bed and cry till I fall asleep and dream of victory.